Rachel

Well shit...

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 06:34:51 GMT

Hades

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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=)

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 09:11:00 GMT

Song of the day...

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 09:26:18 GMT

Amsterdam by Coldplay

Come on, oh my star is fading,
And I swerve out of control,
If I, if I'd only waited,
I'd not be stuck here in this hole,
Come here, oh my star is fading,
And I swerve out of control,
And I swear, I waited and waited,
I've got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side, its on your side, now
Not pushing you down, and all around,
It's no cause for concern

Come on, oh my star is fading,
And I see no chance of release,
And I know I'm dead on the surface,
But I am screaming underneath

And time is on your side, its on your side, now
Not pushing you down, and all around,
No it's no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain,
And I'm on my way back down again,
Stood on the edge, tied to the noose,
Sick to the stomach

You can say what you mean,
But it won't change a thing,
I'm sick of the secrets,
Stood on the edge, tied to the noose,
And you came along and you cut me loose,
You came along and you cut me loose,
You came along and you cut me loose

Lost...

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 22:57:04 GMT

There really is no point to this entry. I'm just sitting here thinking about what I'm going to do with myself for the rest of my life...that's all...I always consider the possibility of just coming home and working until I really have a direction in life but then again why waste my time huh? I'm completely and utterly frustrated with life at this point but then I sit and realize everything that I have been given. I'm so lucky to be where I am and to do the things that I do...people are saying that I look empty...that kind of scares me...I don't consider myself an empty person but I've pretty much lost all compassion for the things that I used to care about. There are things that I slowly realize arn't important to me anymore.Things that I used to hold so much insurance over and now I could care less. And I don't consider this a change for the worse...I think it's a good thing...letting go of something that I used to be...is indescribable... I guess...because I have no words to explain the way it feels. A good friend ensured me that this was just a part of growing up and becoming an adult. I don't have much time left before the years of being a teen-ager will be over. Another chapter of life will be closed and there will be no excuses left... I can't begin to explain how scared I am of the fact that failure in life is a possibility...wow this is going no where fast...hahaha....kind of like my life at the moment. No direction, no compassion, no smiles...this is my life...and I'm not complaining and I'm not upset about it...life has just thrown a little too many curve balls this year. The first time I have ever experienced a friend dying...the first time I have experienced a family member passing...letting go of a friendship that I have had for years...letting go of a new relationship because of my ridiculous baggage...losing a few friends to addiction...losing my own direction and sense of self...and the worst part was realizing that you can't always help...that some things can't be helped...no matter how hard you try sometimes it doesn't matter. Well now that I have completely confused myself and most likely anyone who has taken time to read this, I am off...I hope everyone is doing well.

Sunday Afternoon...no current direction...

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 01:43:05 GMT

~LAST PERSON WHO~
Slept in your bed: Me
Made you cry: Myself
Shared a drink with: All the girls last night
You went to the movies with: Dave
You went to the mall with: Jen and Heather
Yelled at you: Mom
Sent you a comment: Hmm...I think it was my delinquint son Tommy
Said they were going to kill you: Matt

~HAVE YOU EVER~
Said "I love you" and meant it?: To my family yes
Gotten in a fight: Yes
Been to New York? No
Been to Florida? No
Been to California? Born and raised muthafucka
Been to Hawaii? No
Been to Mexico? No
Been to China? Surprisingly...Yes
Been to Canada? No
Danced naked? Every morning to the shower radio
Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? Story of my life
Red or Blue? Blue
Spring or Fall? Fall
Santa or Rudolph? Rudolph
Math or English? English

~RANDOM QUESTIONS~
What are you going to do after you finish this survey? I have to teach a class
What was the last food you ate? A sandwich
Are you bored? Pretty much
How many buddies are on? 16
Last movie you saw? Blow at Rob's house
Last noise you heard? The TV
Things you like in a guy: eyes, personality...the booty...=)
Do you have a crush on someone? Not really
What do you think of ouija boards? I think I actually have one at home but I've never used it
What book are you reading now? None..
Favorite board game? I dunno
Favorite magazine? People
Worst feelings in the world? Being alone...feeling like there's no where to go and that no one understands...
How many rings before you answer?Whenever I get to my phone
Future daughter's name: No clue
Future son's name? No clue
Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yeah I used to have a glow worm when i was little
If you could have any job you wanted,what would it be?Choreographer
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? Righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Not really
What's under your bed? I havn't actually looked
Favorite sport to watch? Baseball
Hair Color: Blonde, Brown and Red
Eye Color: Blue
Height Currently: 5'6"
Glasses/contacts: Reading glasses
Current Age: 19
Siblings: A bro and a sis
Siblings age: Chris is 21 and Angie is 34
located @ : Chris is still in Fremont and my sister is in Visalia
Any Piercings: Belly button, nose, ears
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no
Are You Timely Or Always Late: mostly on time
Do You Have A Job: yes i have many
Do You Like Being Around People: yes!

~STUFF~
Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did:yes
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no, pickiness is a sure sign of a relationship undergoing permanent failure
Are You Lonely Right Now: a little
Are You Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married:yes
Do You Want To Get Married: someday
Do You Want Kids: definitely

~FAVORITE~
Room In house: living room
Type of music: anything pretty much
Song: right now? "letting the cables sleep" by Bush
Day Of The Week: Friday
Color: Blue, black, red, purple...ohhh jeeez.
Perfume Or Cologne: Strawberries and champagne and coolwater for the boys
Flower: Lily's or daisey's
Month: August
Season: Summer if I had to choose

~IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU~
Cried: yes
Bought anything: Well...a shirt, a few blunt wraps and i think thats all...
Gotten Sick: funny you ask...i just got over a viral infection and i also got sick for about 5 hours last night...no idea why tho hehe
Sang:
Said I Love You: dad on the phone
Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: no
Met Someone New: yeah...at the cocktail last night
Moved On: from?
Talked To Someone: yup
Had A Serious Talk:yes actually
Missed Someone: yes
Hugged Someone: yes
Kissed Someone:yes
Fought With Your Parents: no
Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: im a daydreamer, so shoot me
Had a lot of sleep: thats a negatory
Wanted This Survey To Be Over: im BORED

HmMmMm...

Tue, 28 Oct 2003 08:58:29 GMT

[my name is]: Rachel...or I guess most people just say Rach.
[in the morning i am]: Incredibly unmotivated
[all I need is]: a puppy
[love is]: I don't know
[I'm afraid of]: A lot of things I guess
[I dream about]:How easy life could be without school

-.F A V O R I T E S.-
[COLOR]: Blue, Black, Red, Light Blue...Green
[NUMBER]: 7
[DRINK:] Water, Milk, Juice...stuff
[ANIMAL:] Cats
[HOLIDAY:] I really like 3 day weekends...and Christmas since I get a 5 week BREAK.
[ACTOR/ACTRESS:] Jack Black Britney Murphy
[MOVIE:] Way too many
-.W H O.-
[makes you laugh the most?]: My friends
[makes you smile]: same as above
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Not really anybody
[has a crush on you?]:
[easiest to talk to]: I dunno...a few of my friends

-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Never
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Depends on who the person is and what they're saying.

-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[fallen for your best friend]: Yes
[been rejected]: Sure
[used someone]: Sure
[been cheated on]: Yes
[done something you regret]:Hmm...maybe

-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-
[you hugged]: Chad
[you laughed with]: Jen
[you kissed]: Hehehe..
[you said "i love you" to .. and meant it?]:...

-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-
[smoke cigarettes]: No
[obsessive]: Depends
[what's your favorite food?]: Mexican food and Jack
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Peaches and Plums
[drink alcohol?]: Next Question
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Sunrises
[what hurts the most?]: Lonliness, Rejection, Feeling like there's no where to go and no one understands.
[trust others way too easily?]: No not really

-.N U M B E R.-
[of times I have had my heart broken?]: 2
[of hearts you have broken?]: 2
[of continents I have lived in?]: 1
[of tight friends?]: Maybe 5
[of records that I own?]: wow...maybe 200
[of scars on my body?]: 3

-.P I C K.O N E.-
[MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER]: A perfect lover is a perfect friend...or atleast let's hope so
[CATS OR DOGS:] Cats
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] I have 2 and a body pillow
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ] With
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] Top
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] Spring
[NIGHT OR DAY:] Night
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] Gloves
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] Dressed
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] I'm not a huge bunk bed fan
[OCEAN OR POOL:]Ocean
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:] Showers and baths
[LOVE OR LUST:] I dunno
[SILVER OR GOLD:] Silver
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] Diamonds

-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-
[Move anywhere:] I'm not sure
[Meet one famous person:] Josh Hartnett
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] I don't know
[Name one thing you love:] Dance
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] My body
[Do you like school?] No
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] Sometimes
[Do you like to dance?] Yes
[Do you sing in the shower?] Not really
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: Yes
[What's on your ceiling?] A fan
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] Everything

=(

Wed, 22 Oct 2003 07:05:20 GMT

Things arn't going so well

Well...

Sun, 19 Oct 2003 10:15:49 GMT

...I had a good ass weekend...thanks guys!

A Warning Sign

Wed, 15 Oct 2003 08:36:46 GMT

A warning sign,
I missed the good part, then I realised,
I started looking and the bubble burst,
I started looking for excuses,
Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you,
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so

A warning sign,
It came back to haunt me, and I realised,
That you were an island and I passed you by,
And you were an island to discover

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in,
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you,
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so

And I'm tired, I should not have let you go,
Oooooooo,

So I crawl back into your open arms,
Yes I crawl back into your open arms,
And I crawl back into your open arms,
Yes I crawl back into your open arms.

Cool

Tue, 14 Oct 2003 03:03:12 GMT

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Well

Thu, 09 Oct 2003 23:26:12 GMT

Well well well...it's been awhile so I figured what the hell...My livejournal is pissing me off because for some odd reason it only updates on Thursdays...why??? NO CLUE...if anyone knows why I would much a oblidge an explanation! Anyways...a LOT has happened...probably a little too much which is why I'm coming home next weekend. I guess I just need a break from everything here. Don't get me wrong I love it here but sometimes people can get the best of you...I miss my friends and I miss my family even! I'm on the Chico State Dance team!! We just competed at a preliminary competition and we won!! I'm also on the Chico State hip-hop team...it's really fun and we have a really good time. And I'm doing Chico Dance Theatre again...basically I'm trying to say that I took on way too much because I'm starting to fall behind in my classes..but whatever...I don't really care...I am in the middle of changing my major AGAIN because I can't make up my mind. I am thinking maybe International Relations...I get to travel and most the classes are Poli-Sci so I would still get to apply to Law School if I ever wanted to...and I would still be able to teach if I wanted...I don't know...we'll see...anyways...I would like to take the following time to give a few shout-outs to the homies back in Freakmont...(or elsewhere)
-Matt:I know I'll be seeing you nect weekend fo sho!
-Brandon: Miss ya babe! Hopefully I'll be able to see you too!
-Dev: I can't believe that song you made up! I miss you too!! Can't wait to see you!
-Bert: What can I say, you are the only other person who gets as faded as I do and THEN SOME...awesome.
-Rechelle:Babe I havn't seen you in daysss but I can tell you are doing great in college I'm glad you are having fun!
-Shira: Girl...I miss you sooooo much!
-Reuben: I know I talked to you when I was trashed...my bad...lol glad you are having fun too bro.
-Danielle: GIRRRRL! We need to chill to!
-Everyone else who has LJ I hope you guys are livin the life, ttyl ya'll.
-

...

Tue, 23 Sep 2003 07:24:42 GMT

So a couple weekends ago this guy Rob and his friend noticed me and Jen in our pool in the front yard..."Hey that looks like fun...can we come over??" Rob said with great enthusiasm... Jen replied with "Why not!?"...Rob and his friend came over and chilled with us for about half an hour...lil bit of shmokin goin on but nothin big...these guys had me and Jen in stitches as we laughed until our faces ached. Rob explained how he remember meeting us many times before but never really talking with us. The guys called us "Light-weight-pimpin"...which was a great way to end the conversation as the two left...

On Saturday night Jen called our friend Dre from the porch to see what he was up to...and this is what he had to say...
"Oh...well me and all the guys are drinking...our friend Rob died yesterday...he was in a car accident"

Rob was barely 19 and had his whole life ahead of him...I passed by his memorial at school today...still in disbelief...his friend that we met with him was just sitting there next to his picture, listening to music...didn't once look up...just sitting with Rob.

I hope that everyone realizes that things can all end in the matter of a second. Cherish the ones you have and the people who love you...they are worth that extra minute to say hello...and goodbye...just incase you don't get to ever again.

RIP Rob...

wow....

Tue, 02 Sep 2003 09:03:43 GMT

thursday:went out on the town and drank myself stupid...not to mention the thousands of people roaming the streets...I got back to the house around 3 and some friends came over and we smoked till about 4:30...then I made my way to bed at 5:30 only to get up two hours later to attend 4 classes on...

friday: got to campus on time and still high as a muthafucka and continues my journey...after 3 classes i had to run to a CDT booth to try and get some last minute dancers to audition later that day...so hungover, hungry, and tired as fuck I heaf over to the dance studio to start warming up...i had to teach the routine i made up for auditions to the rest of the choreographers and by the time i was done about a hundred girls poured in and i had to start the show...now most people know that even when i yell it's not considered loud so i had to scream to get the counts out and then after two hours of that we had a meeting to discuss shit that i can't even remember and by the time I got home my friends from UCLA were waiting in my living room to drink...well...after drinking AGAIN my body decided it would be a good time for a black out...I don;t even remember how we got hme but i was yakking on...

saturday: morning for atleast half an hour...I didnt do anything all day until we decided to blow up our pool and chill in the front yard for about 2 hours and then i decided i wouldnt drink that night since tricia megan and natalie were coming into town...once they were here we finally made it out after one person inparticular just constantly bitching...i believe we all know who that was...there were way too many parties and way too many people but we all made it home safely and clocked in around 2:30...or atleast i did since I had to wake up at 10:30

sunday: morning to get to the river on time. Me Julia and Jen headed out and the rest of the girls met us there and we had about 6 patio boats going with jsut under 100 people drinkin and smokin all day. it was probably one of the greatest times i have ever had. i think i realized how drunk i was after 8 cups of jungle juice and after we all decided to use the life jackets to keep us afloat while holding our drinks out in the lake...then i went wakeboarding and i gotta tell yah...even when im that trashed i can still hold about 30 seconds up...but many many bruises...got back and i could cut the tension in the house with a fucking knife...whatever...everyone got drunk except for me and jen and all i could hear for hours were the rantings of 15 year old girls and some guy from Fremont and bullshit that pretty much no one really gives a flying fuck about...came back to the house early wishing that i stayed on the boat instead of coming home to bitches...way to fuck up my night...i slept most of it off...

monday: people woke up with horrible hangovers and embarrassment from the night before...no apologies were given except from me...funny huh? i didnt go down the river either...and not because i didnt want to but because i was so bummed....me and julia and jen jsut went to ihop and at like heffers and then came back and chilled in the pool...finished my homework for tomorrow and talked to megan and went for a drive with jen...i mean sometimes you just gotta smoke a blunt...now...im tired and its tuesday...i hope everyone had an awesome weekend...miss you guys!!!

Confusion

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 07:46:53 GMT

I'm in that state again where nothing makes sense...my summer was pretty good for the most part but I needed the clarity in a house where people don't scream at each other. After two days of school I'm already sick of the workload...but I never used to be like this...I'm not the kind of person who loathes over things...I started seeing this guy that I used to date a few months ago...and the weirdest thing happened...I felt nothing...hugging him, kissing him...nothing...what's wrong with me? Am I just overreacting? Maybe...I guess I just feel empty...my friends have been incredible though. And it's not even something I can explain...it's just a feeling of nothing...emptiness...it's like I'm a blank sheet of paper. I feel like I have become a completely different person, for reasons unknown. I wish I could just go to sleep and forget about all of this but it eats away at me...I don't even know what it is...but I'm still confused as to WHY I don't know...if that makes any sense...I have class at 8 so I better try and get to sleep...excuse the ramblings...I don't even know what I typed...goodnight all.

Back

Tue, 19 Aug 2003 10:30:55 GMT

Wow...it's so weird how two places can be completely and utterly different...after unpacking my mass amount of clothes i took a little break...but I think someone managed to steal about 20 hangers because I had to go buy some more today! I bought my books today as well...400 bills for 6 FUCKING BOOKS!!! Julia bought 15 books and she only paid 280...fuck that shit. But yeah all my friends from the dorms had a little party last night which was cool, they had a lil sign with me and a couple other peoples' names on it saying "Welcome back you crazy ass Craig Hall Mutha Fuckas"...that was cool...it was a 3 kegger...too bad I hate beer. I can't wait to start school too! And I have NEVER said that...As much as I love seeing my friends at home I really did miss Chico. Me and my girls went out to dinner just to catch up but it feels like I just saw them a cuple days ago. Summer went by so fast...I kinda flipped out the days before I had to leave because I felt like I had gotten close to a few people and I didn't really get to see them before I left. I know that souns incredibly corny but it's important to me since I will be home a total of 6 weeks including summer of next year...it's kinda weird but I need to get outta here in 4 years to pay for grad school...but I feel a little better about things now...I had to call Megan and Tricia to chat because Julia isn't exactly gung-ho about anyone in Fremont and when I tried to talk about it basically said "who gives a fuck"...which I try not to....but I do...but there really isn't anything that I could do...I dropped by a few houses to say goodbye and I was trying to get outta town a.s.a.p but my brother said I couldn't leave until we had a session...byt the time I got home I was in no condition to drive ANYWHERE let alone the boonies of Northern California. Well I'm about to pass out so I will see you guys when I see you...good luck with the semester and in everything you encounter! keep in touch and be safe ya'll!

I tried

Sun, 17 Aug 2003 02:54:05 GMT

As much as I love my parents they can be pretty silly sometimes...I tried to leave tonight because my car is already packed and I have nothing to do but I got as far as San Ramon and they said to come back...whatever mom and dad...anyways...since I'm bored as fuck I'll just do an update! I have learned a lot about myself this summer. I've learned that if you eat a lot of fast food you will gain weight hahaha...and I have also learned that I need to stop analyzing everything I do because it just makes things worse...but then again not thinking about things may also lead to even more confusion...I have been trying to see things from both sides you know? I can't judge people or assume things because I'm not in there position and I hate it when people assume things about me. And so far so good...I even helped two friends stop bickering at each other...and I feel that I'm always there when a friend is in need too...I mean I really really try and be there..............so here comes where I get a little agrivated....after I helped those two friends neither called me for about 3 weeks...I know they are busy people, as am I, but I always made an effort and I got nothing in return...and then a few of my friends needed some cheering up or basically just wanted to talk you know and I would drop whatever I was doing to make sure they felt better and I always feel like I'm there for my friends. Maybe I'm too caring...whatever...I guess...I'm just dissapointed that my parents were right hahaha you DO find out who your true friends are...it just really sucks when you find out...I have learned many lessons in just 3 months...I feel like I have grown up so much in the past year...but I hate the consequences of it...it is already really hard for me trust people and have a genuine faith in people, and I feel that this summer has made things even harder...but that's a part of life...you deal...I guess I just wish I didn't have to deal ALL the time...well I'm outta this bitch...I wont be coming home that much this year but hopefully I will still see you all in the future...LAAAAATTTEEERRRR

Sat, 16 Aug 2003 03:42:13 GMT

PAST
-first grade teacher's name: Mrs. Nelson
-last word or words you said: Talk to ya later
-last song you sang: I don't remember probably "have you seen her" with Dev
-last thing you laughed at: I havn't laughed today...probably last night at Matt's
-last time you cried: Couple minutes ago

.PRESENT.
-what's in your cd player: Fiddy
-what color socks are you wearing: none at the moment
-what's under your bed: nothing can really go under my bed
-what time did you wake up today: 6:30am

.FUTURE.
-what is your career going to be: Hopefully a successful physical therapist
-where are you going to live: Not sure
-how many kids do you want: 3
-what kind of car will you drive: I dunno

.CURRENT.
-current hair: Blonde highlights and red underneath
-current clothes: Black dance pants and work shirt
-current jewelry: nose ring, class ring, and belly ring
-current annoyance: being home on a friday night
-current smell: taco bell
-current longing: chico
-current desktop picture: uhhm some 70's thing
-current favorite music artist: jimmi hendrix
-current book: Don't read books
-current worry: Getting packed up on sunday
-current hate: No hate...
-story behind your username: My dad just made it for me in 7th grade...never felt the need to change it
-current favorite article of clothing: Guess purse that tricia and megan got me...I know it's not clothing but I love it
-favorite physical feature on a girl:
-favorite physical feature on a guy: eyes, lips, and ass
-one person you wish was here right now: I don't really want to talk about that one
-line from the last thing you wrote to someone: "just chillin at home, u?"
-i am happiest when: I don't remember what it feels like
-i feel lonely when: i feel alone a lot of the time
-favorite authors:...
-do you think too much: yup
-if you could live anywhere in the world, where: On a deserted island
-famous person you have met: Pauly shore, britney spears and darren...(you know darrens dance grooves)
-do you have any regrets: Of course but I just tell myself that what's done is done
-sex or love: Never been in love
-favorite coffee: either one sure and cream or just a caramel machiato
-favorite smell: love spell, strawberries and champaign
-what makes you mad: Uhmm...mad? Ignorance and materialistic people...annoyed? A LOT of shit
-favorite way to waste time: Sleep...go online
-what is your best quality: I don't know anymore...probably being there for my friends
-what's the craziest thing you have ever done: Shit...like i can remember that
-any bad habits: sure
-do you find it hard to trust people: definitely
-last thing you bought yourself: Uhm...lunch
-bath or shower: Both
-favorite season: Spring
-favorite color: Blue, Black, White, Black, Red, Black...you know
-favorite time of day: not the morning
-gold or silver: silver fer sure
-any secret crushes: no

.FASHION.
-how many coats and jackets do you own: shit...no idea...maybe like 5 coats...HELLA sweatshirts tho...
-do you wear a watch: No...just use my phone
-favorite pants color: uhhm jeans i guess
-most expensive item of clothing: uhhm...maybe my abercrombie shirts?
-most treasured: class ring

.YOUR FRIENDS.
-do your friends know you: Uhmm...a couple do
-what do they tend to be like: all of my friends are regular comedians but great people all in all.
-can you count on them: most of the time
-can they count on you: Of course

.LAST.
-last book you read: Hella book questions...you know I almost finished 1984 in toft
-last movie you saw: S.W.A.T.
-last show you watched on tv: Comedy Central Presents
-last song you heard: Uhmm...some music in the shower
-last thing you had to drink: water
-last thing you ate: taco bell
-last time you showered: 7:00pm
-last time you smiled: I don't remember
-last time you laughed: We've been here before
-last person you talked to online: Chris Jackson
-last person you talked to on the phone: My dad

.DO YOU.
-smoke: yup
-do drugs: depends on what the definition of "drugs" is
-drink: yup
-sleep with stuffed animals: no
-have a dream that keeps coming back: no
-play an instrument: ...no
-believe there is life on other planets: sure
-read the newspaper: not really
-have any gay or lesbian friends: yeah a couple
-believe in miracles: no but i believe in fate
-consider yourself tolerant: uhhm to a point
-consider police a friend or foe: they are my friends until they give me an MIP
-like the taste of alchohol: Uhmm...
-have a favorite stooge: Nope
-believe in astrology: Nope
-believe in magic: Nope
-pray: sometimes
-go to church: not anymore
-have any secrets: sure
-have any pets: 1 dog and 3 cats
-go or plan to attened college: Chico State baby
-talk to strangers: all the time
-have any piercings: Yup
-have any tattoos: yup
-hate yourself: Sometimes
-wish on stars: I have before
-like your handwriting: i guess
-believe in witches: nope
-believe in ghosts: sure
-believe in santa: no
-believe in the easter bunny: nope
-believe in the tooth fairy: nope
-have a second family: yeah the fricanos
-trust others easily: no
-sing in the shower: if im in the mood

BONER TIME LIKE WHAT!!!!!

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 02:03:04 GMT

My name is Rachel Rodd and i gave a boner to Devin. I want boner time with Devin DeBenning because he is so hot.

hahahahahaahaha
Rachel doesn't know i wrote this. hahahaha

Hey

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 01:57:28 GMT

...what's up bro? Hahaha I'm here with Dev and Matt and we're waiting on Chase and Jen...but I just wanna thank everyone for a goodtime and shit like that cause I have had a great week..."boner time? i think so!"...Devin wants to ahve boner time with me (whatever that means)..I'll update when i get home...if I can...

Thanks guys...

Tue, 12 Aug 2003 07:00:02 GMT

THANK YOU FOR A GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!

Bored...

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 02:54:31 GMT

x. Full name: Rachel Ann Rodd

x. Nickname/s: Rarodd, Hottrodd, R squared, Rackel and when I'm drunk my girls in chico call me Raquel.

x. Location: Fremont but soon Chico again.

x. Age: 18...(19 in 5 days)

x. Natural Hair color: Dirty Blond

x. Eye color: Blue

x. Present Hair color: Blond and brown and underneath it's red.

x. Religion: Christian I guess

x. Sexual Preference: Straight

x. Bra size/Penis size: 36 C

[The Nosey]

x. What color is your underwear?: Black from VS.

x. Girls, is your bra padded/do you stuff it? No

x. Do you have a crush on someone? Not really

x. Who do you have a crush on? ...

x. What is so special about them?: ...

x. Do they like you back? ...

x. Does anyone have a crush on you? I know of one person but I really don't ask around you know?

x. What turns you on?: If you make me laugh you're on the top of my list...and tattoos...and piercings...;c)

x. What turns you off?: Arrogance

x. Which celebrities do you find attractive?: Colin Ferrall and Josh Hartnett

x. Which of your friends do you find attractive? I have a lot of attractive friends!!

[The Perverted]

x. Have you ever watched porn? Yeah

x. Did you enjoy it? Not really I think it's kinda stupid...

x. Do you fuck or make love? Depends...you kinda need to be IN love to MAKE love so I guess I only fall under the other option.

x. Have you ever had sex with a girl? No

x. Have you ever had sex with a boy? Yes

x. Have you ever kissed a girl? Yes

x. Have you ever kissed a boy? Yes

x. Have you ever gone down on someone? Yes

x. Has anyone gone down on you? Yes

x. Have you ever used any sex toys? No

x. Do you masturbate? No

x. Do you like S&M? It's one thing to use hand-cuffs and it's another to be a fuckin psycho so no.

x. Do you like animals, dead things, children or anything else unacceptable in that way? No

x. Are you sexually shy? No

x. How many sexual partners have you had? 4

x. Do you have any sexual tips you'd like to share? Nah.

x. Would you ever make out with someone outside your race/religion? Yes

x. Would you ever make out with someone who is ugly? Not to me

x. Would you ever make out with someone who has bad hygiene? Ew no.

x. Who do you want to make out with right now?...

x. Who do you want to have sex with right now? Dave is always an option lol...but I'm not in Chico...=(

x. Are you a kitten in bed? Sometimes

x. Sarah McLachlan or Wild Monkey? Why not both?

x. When was your last perverted dream? I didn't know I was supposed to be writing them down...

x. What/who was it about?...

x. Where is the weirdest place you've ever had sex? Ha...wow we wont get into that.

x. Have you done it in public? Yes

x. Are you comfortable being naked around people? No not really

x. When was your last orgasm? I don't want to talk about it

x. What gives you goosebumps? Kissing this one spot on my neck...wooo hooo!

[The Morals]

x. Would you kiss someone you don't love? Yes

x. Would you have sex with someone you don't love? Yes

x. Do you believe in sex before marriage? Obviously

x. Have you ever been in love? No

x. Do you want to get married? Someday but not for awhile.

[The Ending]

x. What is the time? 7:51 pm

x. How long did this take you? Like 5 minutes

x. Did you enjoy this? I guess

x. Are you a pervert? Not especially

x. What did you do most during this survey? Watch the box.

Sick day...

Mon, 04 Aug 2003 19:00:52 GMT

Sometimes we all need a sick day you know? I'm not sure exactly what happened to me last night but I just feel better about things...although I think the real happiness will come later...I don't like admitting that I cry but last night i cried so hard I had to pull over into American and I just sobbed for about 10 minutes...what about? I'm not really sure...but as I conitinues to drive around I stopped...and something just kinda happened and I realized that everything will be ok in the end...because if it's not ok then it's not the end...I can't look at things the same way anymore...instead of feeling sorry for myself I should welcome the happiness of others instead of resent it. I'm sure that things will start to turn around...it's all about what I make of it...well I'm going to continue being lazy on my well-diserved sick day.

Sometimes...

Sat, 02 Aug 2003 17:36:58 GMT

...I wonder why I even try...I just don't understand anymore, I miss the people who enjoyed having me around...I'm thinking of leaving the day after work ends...I drove around for two hours last night thinking things out and I'm still confused...maybe I just need to go back to Chico and clear my head...I really want to but I doubt I will... I'm off to do another tiring day of a show that I never wanted to do in the first place...Good Morning? I think not.

Starting to see...

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 05:53:04 GMT

Seeing the change and maturation in a friend makes me want to change...I need to start respecting myself more...

I think I have done this before...but I'm super bored...

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 04:55:45 GMT

> HAVE YOU EVER...

>Been so drunk you blacked out? Yes...
>Set a body part on fire for amusement? I've never been that drunk...
>Been hurt emotionally? Ha...yeah pretty much
>Kept a secret from everyone? yeah
>Had an imaginary friend? Maybe when I was little...you never know!...hahaha no.
>Wanted to hook up with a friend? Yup
>Had a crush on a teacher? Hmm...I think every girl agrees that there have not been any hot guy teachers EVER.
>Ever thought an animated character was hot? No
>Had a New Kids on the Block tape? Fuck yeah I did...and a lunch-box!
>Been on stage? All my life
>Been sarcastic? Everyday

>FAVOURITES

>Shampoo? I dunno...I guess Iso...
>Hair Colour? On guys? Darker hair...
>Summer/Winter? Either
>Cartoon character? Does Nemo count?
>Fave Food? I eat lots of food
>Fave movies? The Breakfast Club, Chorus Line, Oldschool, Dazed and Confused, Cruel Intentions, Top Gun, Forrest Gump, The Patriot, Enemy at the Gates, Empire Records, Can't Hardly Wait...wow...shouldnt ask me that huh?
>Fave 'normal' drink? Water
>Fave Person to talk to on-line? Anyone really...except for dumbass people who start shit online lol...pretty funny...

>RIGHT NOW

>Wearing? shorts and t shirt
>Hair is? pony tail
>I'm feeling? Bored out of my mind
>Drinking? water
>Thinking about? How I want to sleep in tomorrow...
>And Listening to? the television

> IN THE LAST 24 HOURS

>Cried? Yeah
>Worn a skirt? Yeah
>Met someone new? Yeah
>Cleaned your room? nope
>Done Laundry? Yeah

>DO YOU BELIEVE IN

>Yourself? Sometimes
>Tooth Fairy? No
>Destiny/Fate? I don't know
>Angels? I hope so
>Ghosts? I dunno

>FRIENDS AND LIFE

>Do you fancy someone? I dunno
>Who have you known the longest of your friends? Julia and Jen
>Who's the shyest? I don't have any shy friends...maybe Megan?
>Who's the weirdest? Hahaha Jen...and Matt and Dev...love you guys
>Who do you cry to? Usually Megan or Matt...
>What's the best feeling in the world? Anything that brings a smile to my face...